Love Has No End

Love is grace

Love takes place

On weary days love remains

On endless days love takes the reins

Love gives

Love has no end

When times are hard love stays

When no one knows love knows

When no one see love sees

Love forgives

Love has no end

On angry days love remains

On sorrowful days love takes space

Love boast of none

Love is the glorious one

When one rejects love claims strength

When weakness shows love goes through

Love is selfless

Love is mysterious

Love is a wonder that no one knows

As the heart beats love comes to those

As the heart of love is seen

Love has no end

For Love is known, as God is know

For Love is God

And God is Love

And all have known

Love has made a claim today

Love takes ones heart

Love is all

When love shows through

When strength is new

Love is all for each of you

Love has no end to reach through

For Love is God

And God is Love

Epic Love

How beautiful you are, my darling!
Oh, how beautiful!
Your eyes behind your veil are doves.
Your hair is like a flock of goats
descending from Mount Gilead.
Your teeth are like a flock of shorn sheep,
which have come up from the washing.
Each has its twin;
not one of them is alone.


Your lips are like scarlet ribbon;
your mouth is lovely.
Your temples behind your veil
are like the halves of a pomegranate.
Your neck is like the tower of David,
built with elegance;
on it hang a thousand shields,
all of them shields of mighty men.
Your two breasts are like two fawns,
like twin fawns of a gazelle
that feed among the lilies.


Until the day breaks
and the shadows flee,
I will go to the mountain of myrrh
and to the hill of incense.
You are all fair, my love;
there is no flaw in you.
Song of Solomon 4:1-7


My goal over the next year or so is to read through the whole Bible. Last week I read Song of Solomon. As I was thinking about what we have come to understand about Song of Solomon and the songs (and/or psalms) that Solomon wrote. I realized how true these words could be in so many ways. When we see someone we love and truly love them with our whole heart, we look at the good things; their best qualities. When we truly desire to express to someone how we feel about them we don't say, "well, I don't like that you do this or you should be more this." We instead talk about their flawless qualities (as Solomon does in his letter), we talk about those qualities that first attracted us to the person to begin with, the delightful things we see as we spend time with that person. Yes, we may see and acknowledge those qualities that are not so fair and beautiful but we don't focus on them. I think this is how God sees us, He recognizes our flaws but desires to focus on those beautiful qualities that He has created in us.


There are a few different theories about the love letter in Song of Solomon. Some believe it was written from a man to a woman, while others believe it is an allegorical representation of our relationship with God, while still others connect it with the relationship between God and the nation of Israel, and some see it as the reflection of Christ and His church. However, no matter how you see it or from who to whom it is written. The words written are of the feeling behind a relationship, metaphors of how things look in the eyes of the loved and beloved. Maybe this is why I find this passage so interesting because if focuses on the meaning and feeling behind the words. It is an epic example of the perpetual delight in a relationship of love. A love that we all seek and desire from a relationship. One that is right in front of our face, yet feels out of our grasp at times. The Song of Solomon love seems to encompass the aspect of creation and the simple concept of all created life being both holy and blessed, including human sexuality.

I feel our world has polluted this concept of love within human sexuality. Instead of encompassing all aspects of love, the secular world, and even Christians look just at the physical and emotional. Maybe part of this has to do with the same reason that we forget to look at the meaning behind words or the intent behind a picture. We only see what we see with our eyes, instead of the underneath. My life has been impacted by this physical aspect of love or maybe I should say the lack of love in the physical; the exploitation, controlling, pleasure seeking aspect in the disillusionment of the physical. But as I read Song of Solomon, I could picture in my head how much more there is to love than just the physical, how much more there is to God's creation, and how much more there is to the simple word beauty. I realized that I don't want to focus just on the love in the physical or the emotional need for love, but I also want to remember the love in creation, the meaning behind the words, and the metaphorical delights found in taking pleasure in an epic love that has no end. A love that doesn't stop with the physical and emotional, but instead also touches the spiritual, bring back the delight in God's creation and recognizing the purity in true beauty.

Never A Capella

I was chatting with some people at lunch the other day and someone made a comment about how all the conversations they have had lately seem to involve discussion of relationships. Not just friendship relationships but the whole man, woman going out/dating/getting married relationship stuff. Ironically, but an hour earlier I was asked if I was spending time with any "particular" guy.

So, I started thinking about how much our world revolves around relationships, not just friendships but intimate relationships. We all crave a deeper connection with someone, right? I mean, who wants to grow old alone? I then started contemplating my life, looking at the times when I really desired to have that intimate connection with someone and times when I was content. In the midst of this contemplation, I realized that my contentment rested on spending quality time with God and building my relationship with Him. Not that I didn't still desire that connection with another person but I was content and at peace with where I was at. During the times I pulled away from God, there was something missing, feelings a loneliness became stronger.

I trust that God made us to be relational with Him, with our friends, and of course with our spouse (for those seeking marriage). Relation seems to be build into the very core of our being. How could we not seek out and desire something more from the people around us, and ultimately from God? It is sad to think that people miss out or when in a relationship they still feel alone and empty. They miss the conceptualization that God should be the core that builds the foundation within all other relationships. Here is just a simple little poem I wrote to remind me that I am never alone. Even when that one special relationship comes along for me, I will always have the promise that God is with me, and no one ever grows old alone when they choose God.

A Capella Not Seen

Alone I will never be
For there is something great inside of me
Watching and waiting for the world to see
Alone I will never be
Rainbows fall across the sky, pretty
Mist of love indeed
For love holds me
For love unfolds me
Alone I will never be
You can find it just look and see
Something inside of me
Lean not on yourself or me
Lean on the One meant for thee
Just like a little bee
Drawn to the honey tree

Alone I will never be
A Capella not seen

Risky Business

In light of yesterdays blog, here is a poem I wrote about questioning and seeing the business of choosing God (and His fire):

Risky Business

Once there was some risky business.
Business so risky, how can that be?
But be it was for me.
Was that all I could see?
Seeing was so hard for me.
Was there more hard work ahead for me?
Ahead was where I wanted to be.
Was wanting enough for me?
Enough could be fulfilling to Thee.
Is fulfilling me all just for me?
All just for me not for Thee.
Is not for Thee, helpful to me?
Helpful to me is not risky business.
Was not risky business what I want?
What I want is risky business.
Is what I want faithful to Thee?
Faithfulness is the beginning for me.
Is the beginning where I should be?
Where I should be is right with Thee.
Was not right with Thee beneficial to me?
Beneficial to me is right with Thee.
Is not right with Thee so much more for me?
So much more for me leads to truth with Thee.
Was not Thy truth plenty for me?
Plenty for me is fruit for Thee.
Is not Thy fruit upon me?
Fruit upon me brings risky business.

Was not that the plan for Thy risky business?
Risky business from Thee to me.
From Thee to me a trust, do we see?
We see a business built for Thee.
What business comes from me?
What comes from me is only the assistance from Thee.
Is assistance what you want from me?
Assistance to build a business for Thee.
Why is Thy business a risky one for me?
It is a risky one for me because not all believe Thee.
What more do all need to see?
Seeing is for me with Thee.
How can they see without Thee?
Without Thee there business flees.
How can you let them flee from Thee?
You let them flee because of Thee.
Why can't they stop fleeing from Thee?
You let them choose to flee from Thee.
Why choosing is allowed by Thee?
Thy word is a graceful choice for all to see.
Why do they pee on Thee, instead of see?
Their urge to pee comes ahead of Thee.
Can't they see the urge is not as important as Thee?
Importance is all I should see.
Why is importance such risky business for me?
Risky business is where I should be.
Where else should I be?
But Walking with Thee in eternity.
Risky business for you and me?
Risky business for all to see.
Risky business consuming see?
Consuming fire, risky business for you and me.

Risky Business

Fire Within

Yesterday, I was outside in San Marino (where I was babysitting), all the sudden it smelled like smoke and then there was ash in the air. Obviously, there must have been a fire somewhere nearby. As I thought about the fire, I started thinking about all that fire is both physically, metaphorically, and the connection therein. I thought about some of the ways God used fire in the Bible: to reveal Himself, to guide people through the darkness, in the midst of sacrifice, in an all consuming way. I thought about the physical aspects of fire: how it starts, what keeps it going, what it is made of. I wonder why God chose fire. It is amazing to me the different things in this world that God has made and the dualities they represent. Fire can bring warmth into our home but it can also destroy our homes (if it gets out of control). Fire consumes the land, destroying hopes and dreams. Yet metaphorically speaking, God's fire in our heart can bring hope and dreams to life. The metaphorical fire in our heart is what I am most intrigued by.

I want God's fire to be in my heart. I want Him to consume all the evil in my life so that His good can shine through the fire. Fire can be hot and burning or it can be a miraculous show of God's awesome power or sometimes a little of both. How can one word represent something that can bring both life and death? Yet if we look around, we can see so many things in our world that can be used for death or for life. However, I feel like every day there is a choice that I have to make. I get to choose to let God's fire in so that I can see the positive and the blessings that I have as the bad stuff burns away. Or I can choose to let a deathly fire in that brings destruction to the heart that God has given me. As I watch the ash fall yesterday I wondered where it was coming from. Curiosity was nagging me. I realized that I didn't want to just see the remnants floating around in the air but instead I wanted to see the fire. Just as I want to see God's fire in my life and let it be my guiding light. Most of my life I have had this desire. However, I recognize about five months ago that there has been something preventing me from letting God's fire completely consume me. My own sin blocked me. I let a deathly fire consume me. I let all the lies that I had told surround my heart, the truth about my life was unconsciously buried there. Although, I read God's truth and believed it, part of it was not able to make it into my heart. Yet, like God does all the time, He showed me His love, spoke His truth, and then I got to choose.

This time the choice was different for me. It was a life changing moment. I don't believe my life will ever be the same. The choosing wasn't easy...there was a battle within, a risk of unveiling who I had become, of really looking at myself and seeing the truth in the sin I had committed, of recognizing how far I had come from what my relationship with God could have been, of seeing how easy it is to fall into deadly fire. But for once I choose to let God's fire be my life and completely consume me, burning the lies away instead of just sitting around on the fringes (unable to consume due to lack of oxygen). On that day when I chose to breath in oxygen and let the fire rage, it burned like never before! So painful, but what life it has brought me.


Bits & pieces: Exodus 3:2, 13:21; Psalm 97:3; Malachi 3:2; Matthew 3:11; James 3:5,6

Listening to Life

Are you listening?
Do you hear?
What is your response?
Can you take action?
Each day is a new day
Each moment passes by
The well fills with water
As the rains come down
Voice heard from above
Where did it come from?
Can you determine He calls?
Do you hear His voice at all?
Each lesson is learned
Each weight can be lifted
The shelf splits in half
The books may not fall
For the voice from above
Listening you must do
Direction and discernment
Trust in things new
Hope for knowledge
Hope for your house
Are you listening?
Do you hear?
He speaks to you
He walks with you
A suitcase full of leftovers
A bag no longer needed


Hear Him and take action
Don't respond with a redaction
A turtle slowly makes it
A hare speeds on by
But what is your response?
What is your reaction?
Moments disappear
Time can't stand still
Let go of your umbrella
And let the rain pour upon you
Open your mind
Open your heart
Hear without fear
Remember life is not afar
The rays from the sun flood down
The moon shines bright
As you listen and you hear
Hear the heart of a Father
Speaking words
People bow and pray
Pray not just to pray
Are you listening?
Do you hear?
Pause for a moment of silence
Contemplate the array
Read words of life
Speak words of life
Listen and hear life
Respond with a reaction
Peace you will find
Peace like a deer
Eating grass from a meadow
Not far from here
Look out your window
The door has a new space
As you listen and hear
A new direction takes place
The old way is so near
But new is here to stay
Don't back away

Are you listening?
Do you hear?
Travel at times
Or stay
Words spoken to you
Life made so new
Hope for the next step
Help in your house
Peace is a display
Listen and obey
A whale could not be hollow
A dolphin jumps up high
Are you listening?
Do you hear?
Babies smile for awhile
An open heart you must display
Listen and hear life
Don't fall in disarray
Confide and let go
Open a bouquet
Listen to your Father above
His words for doves
Don't forget to listen to Life
Knowing dismay is locked away
Sit in bed to lay awake
Hear words take place
Just in the right time
In the peaceful passage
Listening and hearing Life
Dedication for on high
On high is where hearing comes
Come to listen
Listening to Life

It's Time To Start A New Dance

I have decided it is time to start something new. In this blog I want to share my heart and life with all of you. I have been writing for many years and hope to one day publish some books and/or poetry. I figured I would start by taking time on a regular basis to write a little note or poem to you. I hope to encourage you and cause you to think. I plan to talk about my adventures and hardships, share poems and scriptures, be real about life and speak truth.


In the past five months God has done a makeover on me and is still continuing to do so. He has given me a chance to restart. At some point in time I may take back these words, however, at the moment I can confidently say, "I am thankful that God allows bad things to happen to people." Maybe that sounds not quite right but hopeful you will understand my line of thinking. I am sure it makes God sad to see us suffer but what joy it must bring Him when we choose to turn to Him in our circumstances. If it wasn't for those hard times and bad things that occurred in my life, I wouldn't have the relationship with God that I have today. The bad things that happen are not fun but remembering God's amazing grace in the midst of our sin is so precious. It is nice to remember that we get to have a relationship with God and not just be little robots that walk around without brains in our heads. :) Why not remember to choose Him, as He has already chosen us? At times this is a lot easier said than done, right? But there is always light at the end of the tunnel if your willing to look for it.



Someone said to me that sometimes God brings you to seminary to heal you as part of your preparation for ministry. That is exactly what He has been doing for me. Healing me from things that were buried deep in my heart, hidden from others (to an extent even from my own eyes). As I continue to blog my story will unfold for you. I look back and wonder how I lived so long the way I did. Yet at the same time, I am so thankful that He gave me this opportunity to choose Him during this specific time. He has pursued me like I could never believe, pouring out His love to me through the people He has placed in my life. Sometimes I wonder how people live without Him. It makes me sad to think that people choose not to believe and see God. Thus, I am beginning this something new. I know God has ministry ahead for me. What that looks like exactly, we will just have to wait and see. In the mean time, here is a little poem I wrote about beginning again.

Beginning Again

Fly over the world
Give birth to new words
Open your mouth and bite
Eyes fill with light
Eagles soar
Lions roar
Reflections appear so near
Candles burn for those dear
Hope for love
Freedom of a dove
Age stands still
Chaos has no will
Sweet melodies play from afar
Some as rich as a chocolate bar
Children dance
Adults romance
Hidden with promise
Mountains rise from bliss
Throne of the One
Cross for One
Grace to you
Grace right through
Beginning again
Beginning again




How can you begin again today? Maybe God has already done a big transformation in your life. It could be something as simple as more trust in Him or maybe spending time with Him more regularly. There is always something to work on if we are willing to look. What is God speaking to you about? What is something in your life that you can give to God so that you can start a new dance today?

Romans 6:1-14