Sunday, April 11, 2010

No Sorrow For Yourself

I wrote this poem a little over a year ago to remind myself not to feel sorry for myself. It stemmed out of a friend encouraging me to stop looking at all the things that have happened to me and the things I had done. Instead, I needed to focus on God and all of His provisions in my life. Through my focusing and allowing God to change my heart, I was able to heal from the past and let go of the sorrow. Isn't God Stinkin' Amazing?!?!


No Sorrow For Yourself

God has a plan
A plan to prosper you and bring new life
Don't sit by or walk away
Don't run in the other direction
Face the sorrow to move on
For after sorrow comes joy like never before
God has a plan
A plan we don't have to understand
A plan that gives Him glory and joy
Walk the way of God
For in the end your joy will be full
No sorrow for yourself
A simple step you must take
A simple path is all it takes
For God brings peace
With God your destruction stops
God brings life
No more sorrow for yourself
Don't run and hide
Find the light
Find the eternity of life

"Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid. The LORD, the LORD, is my strength and my song; He has become my salvation. With joy you will draw water from the wells of salvation." Isaiah 12:2-3

Monday, April 5, 2010

Deeply Seen part 3

This is Part 3. To start from the beginning go to labels in the right hand column. Click on A Little Story and scroll down to part one.

As we played he told me he loved me. Though just a child myself, I questioned how he could love me when we had just met. I spoke my mind, "You can't love me! You don't even know me!" He responded by saying, "I was taught that love is more than just words, it is how you play and give to people. Since I am interacting nice with you and letting you play with me, I love you. I will let you take home my boat because I love you. I want you to have whatever I have." I was a little amazed that he would just let me have whatever he had. Most kids were mean to me and wouldn't share, and they definitely would not give me what was theirs.

We played for hours that day. If fact, I was there so long that I ended up being late to dinner that night. My parents questioned where I was. I told them I had met a new friend. I showed them the boat and told them the different things we made up. I meticulously explained how the clouds moved and swirled in the wind as we looked up into the sky (well, at least in our imagination). Thankfully, after all the talk of what we did they forgot to question where exactly we played. This was a good thing, considering I was pretty sure we probably weren't really supposed to be in the abandoned house. As I got ready for bed that night, I was disappointed that the next day was a school day. I wouldn't be able to go back to play until after school and even then it would only be for a short while.

As soon as school was out the next day, I went back to the abandoned house, hoping to see Vishwas. I waited as long as I could, knowing I couldn't be late two days in a row for dinner. When we parted the day before we hadn't talk about when we would meet again. I just assumed he would be there to play. I went back everyday after school that week and waited for him to come. There were other children coming in and out of the house playing games, imagining, and scheming up all sorts of charades. Some of them asked to play with me and some just ignored me, as I ignored them. Honestly, I just wasn't interested in playing with them. My fascination and desire to play with Vishwas clouded my mind and I couldn't think about interacting with others. When I went back on Sunday, Vishwas was there, sitting in the same corner playing with a motorcycle. I was relieved to finally see him, for it had been hard waiting and wondering if he would show up. I asked him where he had been all week. He told me he was busy but today was the day he and I could see each other.